Well today makes it 7 months that my lil man has been up in heaven... It is one of those days, let alone each and everyday I wake up not wanting to be here cause I just want to be with him. Things are rough and I miss his little hands and feet so much. I am trying to hold myself together because I need to stay strong.
I decided to make something but I cant tell you that I was inspired by anything other than the love I have for my angel. I miss him so much, and well I dont know that I will ever be the same again. I used to be a person that would sit here and talk to anyone non stop for hours and hours on end, but since my lil man passed I have suddenly became silent. I do not talk very much any more unless I am needing a shoulder to cry on or I need help doing things. Well and my job because I work in a drive thru, and well that is all I do is talk.
I feel lost, and well this somewhat calms me down and then again it makes me think about all the things I could be doing with my son. Friends and family understand to an extent, but they dont fully understand the Hell that I face each and every morning when I wake up. I wake up wishing that I were not here because I do not want to face another day without the lil man that I came to love so much.
Sorry this became a vent, I just needed to get this off my chest. I luv you all and thank all the ones that are here for me when I need you! Hope you enjoy the Hearts...
MommytoanAngel

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